Have you ever found it hard to trust God’s will in the midst challenges, struggles, aliments, or trials in your life? While as Christians we believe God’s ways are higher than ours, I would be lying if I didn’t admit that my sinful, fleshly desire is to sometimes follow my own plans, especially when God’s plan doesn’t go along with mine. For me, I grew up with a father who was overwhelmed with health complications that led to three transplants, 30 plus visits to the hospital each year, and a fear of losing my dad before I reached high school. From the age of 11, I suffered from chronic vertigo that only got worse the older I got. I was left bed-ridden at the age of 23 for months at a time, only to find no answers from doctors. I laid in bed with the room spinning all around me, and all I could do was call out to God. Was this His will for my life? Surely, I didn’t sign up for this! I was missing out on everything I had planned for myself.
I realize my sufferings pale in comparison to so many others, but don’t we all question God’s will at hard times in our lives? Whether it’s big or small, it’s hard to trust God. From the difficulties of health, marriage, parenting, relationships, finances, life changes, work, persecution, poverty, and even the unknown, we can’t escape hardship. If this is God’s will in our lives sometimes, then how do we trust Him through it?
Well, may we look to Jesus for that answer. He was the pioneer and perfecter of our faith, but found himself in the Garden of Gethsemane praying our same exact thoughts, “’My soul is very sorrowful, even to death; remain here, and watch with me.’ And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, ‘My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me’” (Matthew 26:38-39). Nothing about Jesus’ ministry or life was easy. He suffered just like us and experienced many of the same trials and temptations we face every day. However, Jesus fixed his eyes on the Father who is faithful. His perspective changed from earthly to heavenly and He was strengthened by God. Furthermore, let us fix our eyes on Jesus who provides us with our strength and hope to endure all things and to trust His will. “We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies” (2 Corinthians 4: 8-10).
Lastly, let us not lose heart. A pastor a few years ago told me this:
“Imagine if we could’ve talked to God before He sent us into our mother’s womb and into the world. Imagine, that God told you, ‘I’m creating you for a purpose and for my glory, but it won’t be easy. You will face all sorts of trials, but I will supply your every need. I will strengthen you through them.’ Some of those trials might be persecution, or for others chronic health problems. Others might grow up without a parent and some will be left starving for food many nights. Some might not even get to take a breath on this earth. Whatever it is, if God told you what you had to face in this world before entering it, could you do it?”
I believe most of us would say yes to that. Just acknowledging that we have a purpose greater than any earthly matter shifts are view from earthly to eternal, and while we don’t know our future hardships, God does and He will supply our every need to face it.
“So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal” (2 Corinthians 4:16-18).
My encouragement to all of you is to remember the key verse, “this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison.” Of course, we can’t see this glory in our daily lives! That’s why we look to the things that are unseen, which are eternal. So, the next time we question God’s will, let us all remember that it has a purpose and it is producing something in us that cannot be fathomed! More importantly, when we submit and trust God’s will, we come to know and enjoy God more abundantly.
As for my vertigo, it’s much better, but I still struggle with it daily. I still don’t fully understand why God put that it my life, but I’ve come to one conclusion. As I trust in Him and lean on His strength, I’ve grown closer to God. Ironically, maybe that’s been God’s will all along.